Archive for December, 2005

on the last day of the year

{ December 31, 2005 @ 9:31 pm } · { frizzy grizzly }
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I am beginning to have weird days.

Everything seems to fly so fast and impromptly that my breath is caught in my throat as I try to stay above the rising water levels. How much more can one take in events of miscommunication and misunderstandings? I find humour amidst some of these, and yet it drains my energy. Mountain outta molehill. Unneccessary confrontations. Misrepresentations of interests. These are so common to my daily life.

And all i want to do is just to fly free of the reins. Life’s already complicated as it is, why make it worse? And so, the -line- is drawn from this moment onwards. Only time can tell us what’s real and lasting and whats not.

And so my year ended with a big bang, thanks to the help of external factors. But heck, I can’t be bothered anymore. It’s been a really mentally tiring two days, with us rushing dad to the A&E once again in the afternoon when all I wanna do is crawl into bed after coming home at 11am in the morning from a bonding sleepover. It sucks to bring the new year in a foreign environment, and my heart goes out to dad for that. Sigh.

The guys are waiting in the hotel room. And yet the girls are still lazing at home. Gotta shower and get ready to welcome the new year with a big bang.

See ya.

of friendships and ice coffee

{ December 28, 2005 @ 1:33 am } · { frizzy grizzly }
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A quote: you can’t be my true friend if you do not know anything about me and vice versa.

How true (note the pun). Many a times, we attach a friend label to someone when all they really were are just hi-bye friends. I used to think differently, calling everyone as a friend, but as we grow, we realise life isn’t really that simple as ABC.

True friends are a needle in a haystack. All we ask for is that a friend does not attempt to do bad unto you. Friendships are amazing. You either make it or break it. It is through tribulations that we forge the stronghold, and it is also through tribulations that we break the bond.

While she was talking, i was also trying to find the reason for my outburst. And I found none. Sometimes we explode for reasons we cannot fathom. And this is the curious part.

We don’t need an explanation for everything.

a new change

{ December 27, 2005 @ 10:29 am } · { frizzy grizzly }
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I am changing my website url to another. Yes, once again.

It’s nice to make changes for the new year.

So, if you have been an avid reader, drop me an email blockbusterjude@gmail.com and i’ll give you the new url once it’s up and ready.

Meanwhile, have fun.

I feel awful. I feel depressed. I want a cry. Alone in the office, i blasted goodbye my lover by James Blunt and had a good cry. I felt better. I feel that all my good mood has been sucked out of me. What’s left is a sense of emptiness and depression.

Nothing is the same anymore.

I wish the hollow feeling will go away soon. I want myself back.

While crying, I thought about him. But I realise I’m not crying because of him. I just felt sad thats all. I am no longer in love. I am just in fustration. There is no more tears over him. It’s just a feeling of sadness that overcame me.

Does anyone knows what i mean?

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